Meet the bean- yay!!!

Still feeling fantastically, superly (yes spell check I realise that's not a word) happy. The kids,after a few questions

Cara : “ So now do we get a new car?”

Dakota  : “ What???”

Rani : “who are we having a baby by?” ( I think she was hoping our sausage dog was having puppies)

are very  excited.

I have just started reading all those blogs I have missed- theres only about 4000,so if I am slow to comment, please be patient:)

Hubby is officially  on night shift- 4pm until 2am, 4 days a week, which we are slowly adjusting to. I am still tired, but the kids are being great, so we will manage.

Even though its winter, Fatboy looked  like this

 

most of the day.

And I look like this

my belly stretches out quick, i just look chubby though!

And here is my bean….

So very happy to be writing this post. So happy.

Thursday

Blessed : divinely or supremely favoured; fortunate

Gratitude : the quality or feeling of being grateful or thankful

 

I wanted to wait until I was sure, the bleeding, which had stopped,started again 2 days ago. So I finally forced myself to go for an ultrasound.

He smoothes the gel on my belly, and says the sweetest words I have heard in a long time

“Theres bub, squirming around”

And I say, “You mean its alive???”

And he says “yes, absolutely”

And i put my hands over my face and cry uncontrollably.

 

Gratitude does not begin to express what I feel for you all. Your comments, and prayers and hugs were so appreciated, so so so so much, and I guess the (5cm ,11week,4 day old) bean sensed how very much it was loved already. I will never be able to tell you all how very very grateful and appreciative I was/am to have your support.

The bleeding continues, I have a peri-sac haematoma which we will be keeping an eye on, but I am still throwing up every day, (which is a good sign) believe it or not, the last 3 mornings I have woken up at 3:48am (same time everyday)to be sick! And Ive never been more thrilled to be sick!

Im writing this at 8pm, exhausted, Ive been on a high all day, beaming insanely for no reason:) Im about to go to bed, and am so looking forward to reading all the blogs I have been missing! So watch out for overload of comments! (and maybe even a belly pic tomorrow? )

Thankyou all so much , I could say thankyou for eternity and it still would not express my gratitude. xxx

wednesday

today is the last day I am 28. It is my birthday tomorrow. i only want 1 thing.

 

i have made another doctors appointment for friday.

thankyou for your thoughts/prayers and messages. love you all

floating in time

thats how i feel. I had an ultrasound appointment, which i cowardly cancelled. I cant bear to hear them say there is no heartbeat. again. hoping against hope, and loving you all for your thoughts and prayers… i dont want to do this again..

please pray, its happening again. I dont want to lose this baby!

I am still here-wish I had a laptop!

Cos then I could type from my comatose position on the lounge. I go from, bed, bath, lounge, bath, lounge,bath,bed.(with many toilet stops to hurl) So although I miss you all HEAPS, blogging is hard at the moment. Hoping you all bear with me, i am missing your blogs HEAPS too!

Still very depressed re Sonny. Poor thing, waiting to hear from my uncle,hes a photographer, hopefully can replace screen for me.

This is too short, and although Ive written my tim tams post, its slightly delayed due to the fact I know I cant/wont post them:(

Help me- any tips for all day sickness, wet rag run over by a truck exhaustion,inability to stay awake past 6pm? It was so like this with the boys- for 9 months! Still, I have never been so thrilled to feel so awful!

Hoping ill be back soon…. I have a doctors appointment this week:)