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Monday, November 16, 2009


Missing in action. That's me. Complete failure at the whole ‘post every day for 30 days’.

Hanging over my head has been the doctors warning- ‘the only risk is between 24 and 31 weeks,of premature labour’

I have had no bleeding since week 19 and a bit.

Reached 24 weeks on Saturday.

Tonight, the bleeding has started again. Right on cue.

It is not a great time for us, with Christmas and the new school year coming up, hubbys hours have been halved.

I am tired of always worrying.

About Beanie. About money. About Christmas and having 4 kids in school next year and how we will manage. About hubbys job. About the fact that right now, i feel as tired as i can remember being, and its only going to be worse when bean arrives. Will i cope?Will I ever actually be a photographer, or is it just an insane dream?

I am tired.

I am sick of whinging.

I just want to be able to relax again.

I will make a doctors appointment tomorrow.